Anyone have a page to all the answers to all of gods killings and atrocitys and murders and immoral acts?

ok i was a christian who loved god and was a true belever in jesus and the christian faith.... but... im reading the bible and.... all this sick twisted stuff that good wants, , injustice, thinking people brn with birth defects arent good enough for his temple Leviticus 21:17-23, does anyone have an apologetic page to explain ALL of this so i can be a belever again, i was atheist for a bit.... its just.... bleh.... anywho if anyone cud have a page for that id realy be nice